Trying to get back on track

I feel like lately all I do is post all of the reasons why I have not been posting. For that I feel awful. Bear with me! I am 3 months out from our wedding ceremony so I have been pretty swamped with work, class and TTC! We officially are on fertility medications. (I say we, but in reality i only WISH he could feel what I go through, haha:) I am on Clomid, we are trying it for three months and if it does not work we will move on to IUI. Today is actually my second day of the Clomid. So far it's good! I have only had a slight mood change and it has actually been a good mood change! I have been happier, I could cry at the drop of a hat but I feel like it would be a good cry lol. So far my side effects seem minimal. I have a headache sometimes, today was my first one but yesterday was the first dose so we will see. Other than that just mild mood swings and helllooooo ovaries! I usually am in pain from my ovaries 2-4 days of the week on average. I have a couple cysts pop a month, so hurting isn't new and I cant say its worth with the meds. They don't hurt per say, they just feel prominent, and sort of bloated. I am hoping the side effects stay minimal and we can conceive on the first round, but nothing ever seems to go that smooth so I am not getting my hopes up. Honestly, If the Clomid doesn't work for 3 cycles, we are taking a break. TTC has consumed our lives and marriage and that is exactly the one thing I was trying my damndest to avoid. I never knew trying to have something so natural and part of life could bring out such emotions and hurt. But, thankfully I have an amazing husband who may not always understand how I feel or why, but he puts in as much effort as he physically can and that always helps a ton. I do NOT want to sound like a giant cliche, but I would honestly 1000000000000% be absolutely LOST without him. He is my best friend and my confidant through all of this. Speaking of which, he is ready for bed so I am going to go lay down and put my head on his chest and forget the world for the night. I hope all of you reading this have someone in so substantial in your life. I don't know how I ever did it without him. Baby dust times a million to all of you TTC'ers. <3 Til Next Time Lovelies.